Perrie Edwards is speaking for the first time about her two miscarriages before and after her son’s birth, including one that occured during her second trimester.
The Little Mix alum spoke to host Paul C. Brunson of the “We Need To Talk” podcast about her experience, explaining her first, “very early” miscarriage happened within her first trimester.
Edwards revealed that she left her doctor’s appointment confused.
“I remember going in to see my gynecologist with the reports and I was like, ‘can you just explain to me? So, there was no baby?’” she said.
“He was like, ‘no, no, no, my darling. You’ve had a miscarriage,’” she recalled.
She had her “rainbow baby” Axel in 2021, an experience she descrfibes as “the happiest times of my life.”
“I just love carrying babies,” Edwards said, reflecting on her “perfect” pregnancy with Axel.
“When you birth something that’s just half of you and half of them, it’s like, this magical being, isn’t it?” she continued.
“It’s the best feeling in the world,” she added.
Less than a year after having her son Axel, Edwards said she became pregnant during the last Little Mix tour.
“Every night before a show, I kept bleeding,” Edwards revealed.
“I was heavily bleeding, and I remember sitting, thinking, ‘This is it. I’ve lost the baby. It’s happening.’ And then I went to a scan the next day or something and the baby was still there,” she said, calling this moment “a miracle.”
Despite the bleeding, the singer kept touring and performing.
“I was thinking, ‘Oh my gosh, I can’t cancel the show. I have to go out. I have to put a brave face on; I have to keep my s— together. Hopefully it’s just the blood clot,’” she recalled.
Her second miscarriage occurred at 24 weeks; she found out when she went to the doctor after returning from Portugal with her fiancée, soccer player Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain.
“I just knew something was wrong in the scan,’” Edwards recalled.
“I just looked to Alex, and I thought, ‘Something’s not right,’” she said, calling this day the “worst day of my life” and a “horrendous” day.
Though the doctor started to explain the situation, Edward doesn’t recall much, saying that the “slo-mo” moment felt “like in the movies.”
“I remember him just saying these things, but I don’t remember what he said. I’ve never experienced an out-of-body experience,” she said.
“I think when you’re fully carrying and you’re 24 weeks, and you’ve planned out their room and all these things, it’s really hard,” she added.
The singer also highlighted her fiancé’s experience of grief, praising his empathy towards her throughout her healing journey.
“Through that whole situation, he was like, ‘It’s not about me. It’s not about me. It’s about you.’ And I’m like, ‘No, but it’s about us. You have feelings in this too, it’s your baby too,’” she said, reenacting the conversation they had after the miscarriages.
“And he’s like, ‘Yeah, but I’m not going through it the way you are. I don’t have to do all these things. I just hate not being able to help.’ And I’m like, ‘But you are helping, because you’re there and you’re here, and we’re navigating it together,’” she added.
